I’m so sorry….

I hate to say no but I’m not ready totry it again. I was hurt to much, but know I love you. I hope I don’t hurt you, I would hate for you to feel the pain. I’m a monster when it comes for tearess and pain. I can’t trust my heart again, it hurt to bad. The blows took my breath away and replaced it with tears. I’m not ready to go through that again. I’m sorry to hurt you, please don’t cry. I dont want to hate you, and I don’t want you to hate me. So let’s just be friends, please. I can’t take the dread and horror of the past, it haunts me everyday all the time. I feel like I’m falling and no one can catch me, that love pushed me down. In this sorrow I slowly drown. I wake up in tears then puke, the past is the worst. The scars are still there and the screams too. I’m scared, what is wrong with me? The past won’t leave me aline, I’m afraid it wants me back. The blood, the scars, the pain, that is not happening ever again…


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