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I think everything we’ve been though was a lesson learnt. And i wouldn’t take anything away from it. I don’t regret anything I’ve done and i forgive you for anything you’ve done. I would hope u would find it in your heart to forgive me for the damage I’ve caused you. Its been an amazing year and 3 months with you. I wouldn’t take not one day from it. I showed me how to love. You showed me things i never thought ill experience. You are an amazing person. The most amazing person that I’ve ever met. That i swear to you. I’ve never met a guy who love me for me, care for me and would put me before they put themselves. We caused each other pain, hurt, heart break and tears. I have never given up on you not once, and i never will give up on you. I will give up on myself before i ever give up on you. I want to apologize for my misunderstanding of you and your words. I’ve been going through things and i want guidance but i have nowhere to seek it. You were my advisor and the person i know i can run to. In this period of my life, i think i need to be alone. As much as it hurts me. I have to go. As much as it hurts my heart i have no other choice. I cant make someone happy when i can’t even make myself happy. But yet, you make me happy. You bring light to my  darkness. But my days are still dark. And i cant find a way to make your days brighter and it kills me inside. I want to make u smile, laugh and feel happy but seems though i cant do it  no matter how much i try. I haven’t given up on you. I’ve given up on myself. Without me there’s no us. Therefore, there’s no more of us. My nights seem so endless. I cant sleep. Feels like I’m living a nightmare but my dreams are not  not yet awaken. My life is a fairytale and you’re My Prince charming. But i can’t find my happy ending because they will never be one. I tried my best and put my 100% effort into this. But i can’t try anymore. I’m so stressed. I feel weak. I feel like I’m not living even when i’m  breathing. I cant put u through this anymore. I can’t put you through hell anymore. I just can’t! I don’t have it in my heart to keep bringing you down, hurting the heart that loves me. It breaks my heart into shreds knowing what i cause. I’ve changed a lot for you. To make you accept me and don’t run from me. But i can’t change anything else. I’ve changed all i could. But all isn’t enough. And it will never be enough because I’m not enough. Don’t blame yourself. Its not your fault. I love you. And i always will. You will always have a place in my heart that’ll never go anywhere. You are so perfect. who you are and how are you is perfection. I would never change a thing about you. But there’s nothing else i can do. I’m just not the right person for someone so amazing and perfect. It hurts me so badly. So badly. So badly, i See no point of trying to fix myself or my life. I want to sleep endlessly. And Never wake up. A deep dream so that this can be over. I can’t live or fight this feeling. I’m not strong enough for this battle. I cant do it anymore. My heart is torn because i i let you down. I broke your heart and you can’t recover from it. Everything is my fault! Blame me! Thank you for everything you’ve done for me. Thank you for your time, patience, love, and your warm heart.  Please don’t hate me for doing this. It probably hurts me more than it hurts you but its for our own good. Why continue something that’ll never go anywhere? I see my days so dark, lonely and quiet now. But its worth it, because it’ll benefit you and your future. I cant continue something so damaging especially if its caused by me. Therefore, i have to let u go. Remember me. Remember my love. Remember what I’ve given to u. Remember our promises and memories. Hold onto them along with my note and heart. Please, Don’t forget me. I love you so much.


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