hi, my name is shilpa. I hail to a small town in haryana, India. But i had completed all my studies in a city which was 25 km far from my town, so i used to travel by bus.
After completing my studies, I decided to move foreign to become a fashion designer which i always wanted to become. And fortunatly my father supported my decison too.
Following day, i went to an ielts academy where i got training to crack my ielts exam. But that academy turned my life. Actually there are four modules in ielts(reading, writing, speaking and listening), i was good in all except reading.
On the first day of academy, first lacture was of reading taught by rahul sir. He was a fabulous teacher. He was just 25 years old and mine too. He was elegant, knowledgable, clever and fit. Whenever he entered in the class i used to see him, his facial expressions, smile and voice.i loved his everything. Even 4 times we did eyecontact for about 2 minutes.
He noticed that i kept looking at him. Around 15 days he didn’t react. But after that he also started looking at me. My heartbeat rose whenever he looked at me.
Meanwhile, he became my crush. I used to think about him while studying, listening to music, sleeping. I used to imagine stories with him im my dreams and wake up with his dreams. I never skipped a single day of academy just because of him.
But unfortunatly, the last day of mine in academy came when i had to leaved. After few days i had ielts exam. That i cracked and everyone in my family were delighted. But,i was still missing him.
After then, i decided to search him on facebook and luckily i got his account and that time i was on cloud nine and nervous too and feeling hesitation whether to send request or not. But, collected my courage and sent him request in morning. He accepted my request at night, but i was just waiting when he would accept. He immidiatly sent me a text massage and when i saw his massage,i was over the moon and for replying my hands were shivering, but somehow i replied and did some chat with him.
After few days i had birthday and waiting of his wish and fortunatly he wished me. Even i didn’t noticed other’s wishes. I was just kept looking at his wish. He said ”happy birthday shilpa”.
My hands used to start shivering whenver i tried to text him. And whenever i text him my mind got blank what to say and how to start conversation. I just send him hi and hello that’s it.
One day i decided to take my ace pal’s help. I shared with her my facebook id and password. She chatted with him on my behalf. She made us familiar and comfortable with eachother.
And a new phase also began from that chat. Next day he had started sending me text massages and we used to chat for 2 hours approx. 2 or 3 days later he proposed me. And i think that moment was the best moment of my entire life.
But my friend told me” he is not a good guy you should maintain distance from him”. Because she was my bestie i said ok. So, i rejected his proposal and told him to become my friend only.
He pissed off and didn’t send me any massages for 1 month.
Afterward, i posted my few photoes. He saw and commented “looking beautiful ❤”. Again our conversation started.
This time i accepted his proposal and my love or i can say my dream life started with my crush who became my boyfriend. But, we didn’t meet,because i was kind of scared as he just always get physical with me.
Following that he got angry and we had an arguement and didn’t talk but i waiting of his massage. I also wanted to text him but i didn’t do that.
Eventually after 2 months, we did video call and told me that “i moved to canada”. And i was unable to handle this but i did, i just know how.
After that call he began making distance from me and realised me that i am not beautiful. But i didn’ t shared my pain with anybody. I just cried in my room alone and just listent to some music to get rid from the pain.
I tried to text him but he gave me rude reply. Then i said to myself ” you don’t need to text him if he treat you like this”.
A few days later, i went to my friend’s wedding and again uploaded some photoes. After seeing such photos he again text me and i replied him happily and didn’t show him my pain.
Again our chatting started but he became more egoistic. And during chatting he also made me realise that i am nothing in front of him and did nothing in life. But still i never depicted my tears. I was still smiling in front of him because i loved him.
My best friend kept explaining me to stay away from him but i didn’t do that.
In video call i did everything whatever he wanted but he chatted with me in 15 days interval.
But during that intervals i started making my mind strong and tried get control over my feelings.
Fortunatly i did it and after 3 months i told him breakup. He asked me the reason i just told him ” my love for you has been finished”. But this time he didn’t want to let me go.
But now he couldn’t control my mind and my feelings.
It took 1 year to get out from my past. Besides, i learnet alot from my past and he has made me a strong person.
Now i am happy with my new boyfriend who was my friend and always wanted me to be his girlfriend. He is caring and love me so much and he is not like him (rahul) who just wants physical relationship.